A Working Outside the Home Mom

I am a mom who works both inside and outside of the home. My job used to be full time mom which I quite enjoyed. Sure I would bitch every now and again about trying to keep a house with 5 people and 3 dogs clean and orderly. I wasn't a fan of how much time I spent in the car shuffling kids to and from after school activities but I made it work. I took joy in being the one to make them breakfast, pack their lunches and send them off to school. It was the highlight of my day the moment they came home and told me sometimes lengthy but often brief and succinct stories of their days. Now I often have to pick and choose which one of those tasks I get to participate in. I now have a full time job Monday through Friday that keeps me away from home and my family. And for what? Do I really benefit from this work I do outside my nuclear existence that grounds me and definitely makes me happiest? As I sit here at work today while my kids have the day off from school, I miss them. Working should be fulfilling. I mean to say that it should satisfy a need. I currently have the need for healthcare, a steady income, stimulation for my brain and a want to use my education for a bigger purpose. So let's evaluate my current setting to see if I am meeting those needs. Healthcare: Half my monthly paycheck is going towards my family's healthcare. Am I covered if we have a medical emergency? Yes but at what cost. I don't make enough to survive on the other half so we are currently dipping into saving. Is the income steady? Yes but again, where am I adding to my future savings or that of my kids? On the issue of brain stimulation, I am writing this at work so what do you think? If you answered she must be bored out of her mind, you would be right. It seems that once I hit the 2 month mark at most of my jobs I am no longer challenged. I really love the people I work with and the office. They are some the nicest human beings you could ever meet and call friends but I have anxiety about how much down time I am going to have to endure during those 8 hours. Here's the kicker: this seems to be my best option in terms of a "career" unless I go into work for myself since my 12 years of being a working inside of the home mom qualifies me for basically sales and customer service. Who cares that I have a graduate degree. I didn't use it and the world has moved on. These thoughts keep me up at night. Do I have a solution as to how to create a better situation for myself? Maybe. Problem is I haven't tapped into it yet. I have more ideas than I can count but don't which is the right one for me. I have so many interests but nothing has stuck yet nor been an option for a career. Does anyone else face this same challenge? What has been your solution?